Make or Break

What have I gotten myself into? This is seriously rolling the dice and I don't know if I want to win or lose. I'm scared and stressed and in pain and it's hot and the world is mad place right now. I'd heard rumors of what was happening in Nebraska and North Dakota and Texas and now I've seen it with my own eyes and I'm scared and I haven't even gotten dirty yet. We don't even know what's going on in hidden corners. The chaos that the news reports on is a mere grain of sand in the desert of indifference the universe has for humanity. I am incomparably small and insignificant and the turmoil I'm involved in now goes literally to the depths of the earth and smells like burning rubber and diesel fuel and looks like Mad Max.


We're going to end up in an apocalypse. There's no avoiding it because I've seen the source and it is growing and furthermore we will get used to it and the word apocalypse will not be used to describe it. They might call it paradise...with women genetically modified to look like sex kittens and men riding hovering neon harley davidson bikes in a sun baked land with deadly gamma rays bombarding the earth. That's our future. Not Star Trek-- but Blade Runner. And it won't matter because the buffalo will be gone still and the great auk and the names will change and the paradigm will never shift. It's a giant circle and I'm in a small circle within the circle that spins me slightly downward and then back up but the entire time I'm in orbit going down.